I thought I died and went to heaven, but then I woke up to find myself in hell..

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 04:09:54 GMT

Its summer.

Im in CT.

This last year was....

I have so much to say about it, so much to say so much to say.

But nows not the time.

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 08:46:19 GMT

4:42 AM. Adderall. Mad shit to do yet always procrastinating. Always awake always awake. Let the week begin. Circles and circles. DMB is so soon. Thank god. I have to get good grades so I can stay here in sanity and peacefullness. I have to get good grades so I can get transfer to better programs and learn about peace and get film opportunities and in turn prove everyone wrong and change the world and make a difference and follow my talent and my dreams and my destiny.

I can do it. If I would just stop procrastinating. ugh.

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 03:32:28 GMT

I need to get out of here now now now now now. Im going crazy. Fuck Ive become crazy.

Its only Tuesday. Help me. Sunday you mother fucker please come quickly.

"My Head Won't Leave My Head Alone, I Don't Believe It Will Until Im Six Feet Under Ground."

I need to fix my life and I can't do it until I leave this hellhole.

Fuck.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 17:31:15 GMT

HALLOWEEN
DANCING
JOHNSCOMINGJOHNSCOMINGJOHNSCOMING

AHHHH SO EXCITED

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 22:06:16 GMT

I miss you John.

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 09:04:47 GMT

I am so stressed.

I am so exhausted.

I am so sick of things.

I want to go to Vermont.

I want to sleep but I have too much work.

I want to finish my homework but I have too much on my mind.

Goodbye.

hmmm

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 13:21:10 GMT

So Im currently listening to an amazing bootleg typical situation jam with a killer sax solo from 1993....amazing.

Anyways, my sleep patterns are so wacked out. I can't sleep on the weekends. Last night I went out and didn't drink or smoke and still slept when the sun rose and woke up the next day when the sun was setting.....typical sleeping pattern for me. Shits Rough.

Oh well, Im going home tonight and Im sure Ill get sleep, although I should probskies stay up to study for my upcoming midterms....hmmmm.....oh well. I hope I can find some delicious Apple Fritters when I go home!

P.S. So the Smashing Pumpkins are playing a show in NYC....god damn I wish I had money.

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 07:04:46 GMT

Things to do in no particular order:

Get Organized
Get Laid
Make More Money
Smoke
Drink
Get A's
Call Becka
Call John
Update Music
Download more Moby
Volunteer
Get all the Live Trax
Sleep

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:23:31 GMT

I need to sleep and study more.

ahhhh

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 00:17:33 GMT

So Im at Pace....

Its sick, I love it, I have friends, yeah!

Thank God.

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 00:32:26 GMT

I hate this place, I hate everyone here, I hate hating, when I have no real right to....I have it so much better than so many people....but I can't wait to leave. Fuck it. Seven Days....why are you going by so slowly?

.....Sometimes my head won't leave my head alone, I don't believe it will till I'm....

WHATEVER AH.

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 15:35:59 GMT

20 days

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 17:36:59 GMT

I made the biggest mistake I have ever made last night, just completely fucked myself over for the rest of the summer.

Good fucking going Arya.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 19:27:38 GMT

6 days untill my happy place, dancing under the stars, nothing but beauty flowing through my ears, mind, heart, soul.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 02:08:13 GMT

I fucking hate them and I cant wait to leave.

They are so god damn crazy.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 20:15:40 GMT

The sun is beautiful.

Its 4th quarter, my senior year, and Im in a funk. I dont care to do anything and Im never work out and I sleep constantly. However, Its almost April break, which ends with my 3rd favorite holiday, and after break there's only 1 WEEK left until may.

Then, in May there's vacation days, Ball, Picnic, Assasins, Mean Girls,etcetcetcetc.

THEN its JUNE where I get to once again get to see my favorite band in the whole wide world and be in my happy place aka dancing under the starts to the lovely tunes of DMB

And THEN its gradumification, which means I never have to go back to that horrible place called high school everever again.

The end.

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 18:28:34 GMT

Its weird to look back and see how different things are compared to how I though they would turn out. In every single aspect, but not at the same time.

Peace Jam this weekend!!!

I didnt get into Clark.

?

It sucks when you are so sure about something, and it doesnt turn out.

It sucks when you fight to with someone you love, because you are so angry/sad with them that you make them feel angry/sad which makes you even more angry/sad. Fighting is just a huge fucking circle, especially when its with a parent/sibling/lover/friend.

Anyways, I bought DMB tickets yesterday morning, 10 am, the minute they went on sale (as always). Im amped.

Its very possible that Ill be going to NYC to attend Pace next year, since Clark didnt turn out. Plus I got a nice scholarship there soooo....

"Everyday things change, but baiscally they stay the same."

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 23:05:46 GMT

Its March 20th.

86 days till graduation.
84 days till DMB 08.
30 days till April 20.
11 days until April starts.
11 days until Clark/BU send out admissions decisions.
9 days until DMB tickets go on sale.
0 days until spring starts.

? Sweet/Scary/Short/Long/Exciting/Boring

Might I add that I have this incredible ability to predict shit that goes down in peoples lives, well before they tell me, alllll the time motherfuckers. Oh and that when people are obsessed with one another its creepy and annoying and stupid and immature. You are your own person, hypocritcal and all. Accept it and if you dont like it change it. Stop moping, your life is better than you think.

ImsorryIsoundlikeabitchbutitstrue.

Peace,

Arya

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 02:37:12 GMT

It amazes me how oblivious people are to the way the world really is.

It drives me crazy that I have to wait until April to hear back from my schools.
(Ahhh Clark just accept me so I can be a little less stressfree!!!!)

Its slightly obnoxious to me that the back window of the car I spent/continue to spend all my money on doesn't work. It annoys me more when people complain about material possesions they have, because people, including myself on many instances, take everything for granted. But thats what Livejournals for anyways....

YSAG? I dont even know If Im doing a good job with that. I really hope that people buy tickets to the ball. I really wish people would come. But then again I feel completely unmotivated with it, and GRYFF and everything else in my life....

Sometimes....okay, all the time, I wish I could take time off of the world. Just pause life for a moment and just live and be and enjoy. No parents, no history, no preconceived notions, just....existence....

I cant wait until I retire.

Peace,

Arya

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 14:20:04 GMT

Yes, it is the fourth of July, the day to celebrate America.

Well America here are some statistics for you:

So far this year, the US and NATO have killed 236 Afghan civilians.
So far this year, the Taliban has killed 178 Afghan civilians.

Interesting America. Fucking interesting.

Thu, 31 May 2007 20:37:10 GMT

The School to the Year NEEDS to be over. ASAP. NOW. THIS VERY SECOND.

Ahhh.

In other news, prom was....whateva, no biggie, kinda lame.
In other news, I dont care about school, and have early stages of senioritis.
In other news, I realize that I love some of the people that I never hang out with outside of school more than my actual 'best friends'.
In other news, I am not going to get into college, and Ill be stuck living in hell for another four years.
In other news, there are still about 385 days left until I graduate....shit.

Peace,
Arya

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 00:26:32 GMT

Dear Term Paper,

You are a dumb bitch. Why are you due so soon?

-Arya

Okay, so it should be more like;

Dear Arya,

You are a dumb bitch. Why didn't you start sooner?

-Arya

But what's the point of realizing I'm a slaker when I can blame it on something else?

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 01:17:02 GMT

If dave is on the rumored tour dates I'm a bust a cap in yo ass.

ahhh please be not in August pleaseeeeeee

ahhhhhh

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 23:51:31 GMT

Ummm wow this sucks.

The one thing I was looking forward to is gone, the one thing I was actually passionate about it ruined, and it will all blow over soon, I just want the week+weekend to be over so it can be CAPT WEEK!

Oh, and I want my term paper to be written.

Oh, and I want to get my license/have money to pay for drivers ed/have a car.

Oh, and I want to leave my house and chill w/ people I actually am friends with!

Oh, and I want to punch someone really hard and then cry because I hurt my fist, b/c that's what I would do (lame I know)

Oh, and I want to Idontevenknowanymore.

I really just want to sleep for weeksandweeksandweeks.

How can I want so much, when other's have so little? Screw Human Nature. Can this day,week,month,YEAR please be over now?

K thanks.

ahdkjfh

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 00:13:32 GMT

Holy shit new favorite song ever is Dig by Incubus.

Go check that shit out.